Do you think your ex still wants to be with you? I don’t know and I don’t care. He wasn’t the one for me.
Let’s say you had a baby with the last person you kissed? Not any time soon! We plan to after school, then job and marriage. Will this Friday be a good one? Jogging with Jason in the morning, and he said he wanted to do something since that day is an anniversary day (just a monthly, not yearly). We may or may not do something but either way, I still have a lot of studying to do.
When was the last time you completely broke down? Like last week. Just bottled up emotions from the past that I never got closure. Jason was very supportive.
Do you know anyone that smokes pot? Yes. Who doesn’t?
Are you nice to the people you dislike? Yes. As part of my job, I have to be kind and patient to everyone, even to the patients who are annoying, and as a result, I can convey the same behavior to people I dislike in social settings.
Do you have someone you can spill your heart out to? Yes.
What are you excited for? Sort of excited for school? That’s short term. In long term, I’m excited to become a nurse.
Your ex shows up randomly at your house, what do you say? "How you get here all the way from NYC? And then know my house in LA? Creep."
Is there a person that you would do absolutely anything and everything for? My babe of course!
Does sex mean love? Nope.
Have you ever fallen asleep on someone? Yes, all the time hahaha. I mean physically though. Not like having a conversation with someone and then just fall asleep mid-convo.
What’s something you really want right now? Financial stability so I can focus on my studies and cleaner roommates.
What was the first thing you did this morning? Get ready for work.
What is your relationship status? Happily taken.
What did the last text in your inbox say? From Who. From Jason: “Good night baby I love you <3 Mwah mwah mwah.” Every night. :)
What was the longest time you’ve wasted on a certain person? Nothing is a waste. Everything is a lesson. Everything I learned from past relationships, I’ve applied to make improvements in myself for my current relationship. Even though honestly, when you’re truly in love, it’s not even hard. It’s so easy. I’m just 100% myself, like I don’t even try to impress him or anything. The only thing I try for in this relationship is making him happy and trying to go out of the way to do things for him because I care.
Are you listening to music right now? No. Room mate is asleep.
Anyone you would like to get things straight with? Not really.
What’s in your purse? Binder for note taking tomorrow in class, my iPad, my lab book, wallet, make up bag, hand sanitizer and water.
Is your name a common name? Kaffy? No. But I recently found out it’s a French surname.
What is your favorite color out of these 5: Green, yellow, blue, pink, or red? Green.
What are you doing tomorrow? Anatomy lecture and lab, 12pm-11pm. :’( Only one 30-minute break. KILL ME NOW.
You receive $500 without any reason, what do you spend it on? Put it in my bank account because I have financial responsibilities now and you never know when $500 can really save your butt. Seriously, it wasn’t until I lived on my own that I realized why my parents can be so frugal because now I’m doing the same.
Since the start of 2014, how many new friends have you made? One pretty good and close friend, and others just friends at work. I don’t know about school yet. It’s not easy making friends right off the bat when you just moved to a new place and you become immediately busy …
Do you always make eye contact with people when you’re speaking to them? I try my best to often, but not intensely. That’s weird.
Have you seen or spoken to anyone attractive today? My boyfriend, of course. :) <3
Describe how you’re feeling, in 3 words. Tired, anxious and happy.
Who was the first female you spoke to today? My co-worker, Angela.
Have you ever pushed a “pull” door, or vice versa? Yes. Did you know in NYC, the way they format push/pull doors is the complete opposite in Cali? So I keep pulling when its actually pull and visa versa out of habit. -.-
Who is your favourite person to have random conversations with? Pretty much anyone.
When you were small, did you ever ask where babies came from? I did and my parents gave me some bs answer and I just never questioned it after that.
If you did, do you remember what your parents told you? I think they said something like, “when the bride and groom kisses at the alter, the babies gets transferred from the dad to the mom through the kiss and then the babies wait to come out at the right time.” Or something like that. Idk, it made sense to me when I was 5.
What’s the nicest compliment you’ve ever been given? Beauty with brains.
Do you know what the last person you kissed is doing at this moment? He just knocked out.
Are you attracted to confident/outgoing people, or quiet/reserved people? I don’t know. I don’t fall for people with specific qualities. I fall for people based on the connection we have and if it’s intimate. But to get an idea, I guess, Jason can be both depending on the situation and his mood.
Have you felt butterflies in your stomach today? Yes.
Think of the person you fell the hardest for. What first attracted you? The moment I met him, at first glance, I had this instant rush of this feeling from my heart down to my gut, as if I just KNEW he was the one. It was almost like he seemed so familiar to me, even though I’ve never met him before. Although I didn’t like him immediately, I just knew he was going to be the one. Somewhere down the line, I started to fall for him the more I got to know him and I don’t know how or when that did. And also how since day 1 we met, he never stopped trying and never stopped chasing me. Even before I liked him or got to know him, he would always chase me.
Finally, what are the chances that you will have sex tonight? 100%? Because it already happened? TMI????? Sorry ..
to tell me, “What do you mean you can’t rave while you’re in school? Nursing isn’t even that hard.”
Here’s some background to this:
1. A regular college semester is 4 months (give or take.) In my school, each term is 9 weeks. A regular college class meets twice a week, probably 1.5 hours each. A class in my school meets once a week, 6 hours each. SO IMAGINE ALL THAT MATERIAL OF A REGULAR COLLEGE SEMESTER CONDENSED INTO 9 FUCKING WEEKS.
2. The guy telling me this goes to culinary school. FUCKING. CULINARY SCHOOL.
3. Nursing AS IS, isn’t even a walk in the park.
So if you are a nursing major, and you have the means to go out and drink and have fun, GOOD FOR YOU. Even if I have extra time to go out and drink my brains out, I’d rather use that extra time to improve what I already know than to pass my classes with just average. If you haven’t noticed by now, average in America gets you fucking no where.
As for me, I’m in an accelerated program and it’s intense. The material is condensed. I took out MAD LOANS to put myself through to school. In my school, if you fail twice, you get expelled. If I get expelled, or if I drop out of school, I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE WHAT I WOULD RATHER DO THAN NURSING BECAUSE MY DREAM IS TO BE A NURSE AND IT ALWAYS HAS BEEN.
I sacrificed so much to be in the position I am now. In addition to the already intense schoolwork I have to do, I am also working to support myself financially. In my previous academic experiences, I was a smart student, but I was lazy. I BSed in studying, but I did well without even trying. (Not in Orgo though, fuck Orgo.) I’m pretty smart and I’m pretty good at memorization in the areas I want to be, but that won’t get me far in nursing. I have to also work hard and study hard.
You say to me, “you’re the one who chose to live this way.”
YES, I chose to live this way because I would rather suffer a little now and have the money to have fun for the REST OF MY LIFE, than to have fun a little now and suffer for the REST OF MY LIFE.
It’s not that I don’t want to rave, party, go out and drink. Hell yeah I’d be down. If this was me two years ago, I’d be there in a minute. However, now is not the time. I made sacrifices. I have priorities. I have responsibilities.
Right now, school and my career is my priority. Of course I get sad when I see my friends go raving without me. But you know what, they’re not in my shoes. They’re not majoring in nursing, or under the circumstances I’m in. We all have our reasons and ways of why we do things.
There’s a lot of pressure on me to do well. One little fuck up and I’m fucked for life.
So DON’T fucking tell me, “wow, I can’t believe you’re giving up your social life just for nursing,” because you’re just a student in culinary who thinks six hour shifts are too much work. Nigga, in NYC, I balanced three jobs and worked on average 14 hours a day, 7 days a week. I’m not even fucking kidding, go look at my tax returns.
I have bigger dreams and I’m willing to go the extra miles to achieve them.
I won’t be seeing you in the future when I’ll be the one with a career I love, enough financial stability to maintain my necessities AND spend on luxurious means. Oh, and support my family.